Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Word of the Year- 2013


2013

The last two years I have chosen a “Word of the Year.”

2011 - Courage
2012- Relentless
2013- ??

Each word for the years past have really defined that year for me, without me knowing in the beginning of the year.  I needed courage in 2011 to begin many life changing journey’s that year. It's what made me walk into Crossfit.  I needed to be relentless last year facing challenges I never saw coming without the chance to just be able to give up.

I have been playing around with what word I will use to drive me this year, what word will I find solace in when I need focus, what word will help me do the things I want to do this year?  

The word I have chosen for this year is BELIEVE.  I know I CAN lose weight, I know I COULD possibly follow dreams that I have had for a while..but do I BELIEVE I will be able to actually do what my hearts desires when the past has shown me to fail?  I actually do, but not easily and that is why I believe the word believe is perfect for this year and the perfect lesson for me to learn this year.

Challenges come with this... life gets in the way of this fun activity and will challenge me I am sure. I believe I can handle it. 

What will your word be this year? I’d love to hear.

Monday, September 10, 2012

What do you really want?

I just finished the second retreat in as many months where we discussed the question, "What do you really, reaaaally, REALLY, really (many really's later) want?"  I wrote of wanting to help other people, lose weight, have an easy life, make good choices, start a non-profit, be a good mom...the list went on. And on.  I only had three minutes to write about it.

Today in the car with Altug I was talking to him about the retreat while also pointing out shops that we were passing and asking him if he had ever been to this and that restaurant (plus comment on my opinion of the restaurant) and telling him where to park, and ....he looked at me and said, "I don't understand how your brain works!" I said, "It has many layers and is like this all the time, always thinking, questioning, creative, retreating...." Honestly, it can be exhausting.

Driving home from the retreat my mentor/friend/life coach Kris said something that resonated with me after my struggling to give an answer to a simple question.  "Maybe you are just overcomplicating things.  Usually it's really simple. You want to or you don't."  We were talking about going to the gym.  I said "You really think I don't want to go to the gym?"  and she said, "Yes, you choose to stay in bed.  That is your choice.  Simple."  Oh how I hate it when she simplifies it so much and I know it is true.  SO true.  That Real House Wives of whatever city has been a choice for me over exercise is not something I want to own up to, but it is my choice.  Comfy bed over burpees, totally my choice.

In thinking today about what I reallllllly want, I am going to work on simplfying. Owning my choices and not questioning the hell out of myself. That's also going to take listening to my true self and not all the bogus thoughts  that are clouded with the what ifs.  Taking action on the voice that knows what really will work and feel good and simple.

So what do you really want?  Think about it...write about it. You might be surprised at the answer you get.







Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Row, Row, Row...

Have you ever really listened to the song Row, Row, Row your Boat?  Me neither until today while listening to a Wayne Dyer speech about spiritual laws. 


I'm a fighter, I try to control a lot and feel like many things I have to organize and stay on top of because so many people depend on me (not true, but this is what I tell myself so I have reason to battle on another day, fight the good fight). 


But when I can't win, which is often,  I get stressed, I pull away, I over analyze and over tell people what they should do, I seem like I am not listening because I am just working like crazy to make things my vision of perfect.  


Anyway..think about the words to this song (say it rather than sing it):


Row, row, row your boat,
Gently down the stream.
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
Life is but a dream.



I don't know about you, but I tend to row quite a lot up stream in other peoples boats andas well as my own. Up stream in rapids if you count today.  


I am working on staying in my own boat, on my stream.  It just sounds easier to me then jumping in all ya all's boat and getting in your business and telling you where to row. :-)


The last line is so beautiful, simple, and true..Life is but a dream. 

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

A Gift That WIll Keep Giving

I got a huge present in the mail today.  It was wrapped in great wrapping paper and a big bow.  I knew exactly what it was...a gift I am giving myself.  It was all of the materials I need for Weight Loss Life Coaching Certification that I am going to be going through.  I have signed up for an amazing program that will change me forever, I am sure of it.

I have played around with the idea for years, and after a great talk with a friend the other day I made the move to do it.  I didn't think I could/should because I still have so far to go.  She said that's exactly why I should do it, that people will know that I was able to accomplish what I am looking to help them with.

So I did it.  I signed up and am ready to go.  I am not sure where this road will take me, but I feel like I am on the right path.

XOXO.....Jenny


Sunday, May 20, 2012

It's about time...

Today I had a huge accomplishment.  I finally figured out how to make my wireless internet work since moving in early April.  I finally just pressed the reset button and BAM...it worked.  That button would have saved me countless calls to Comcast if I had known about it sooner.  Oh well, I am much more tech savvy now I guess.

Anyway, I am back and need to start up this blog again.

Some exciting things are going on for me and I'll be happy to share them with you here.

Until then, have a great Sunday!

Jenny




Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Doplar Radar

As I was driving home last week from Lathrop to Rancho Cordova I drove through a huge storm.

When I left Lathrop, which is just south of Stockton, the sun was shining and I thought to myself that I was surprised that it hadn't rained yet.  I talked to my dad as I left and he said that if I was planning on taking highway 99 that I would be going through a bad rain storm, that it was red on doplar radar which he hadn't seen for a long time.  Being a daughter, I thought, "Oh dad, stop being so dramatic!" and I said something like, "I'm SURE I'll be fine, I drive everywhere."  As usual, he was right.

As I entered Galt rain was pouring so hard that I couldn't see through the windshield and I had a little moment of panic and mentally had to be strong so I could make it home safely.  Just when I thought it was clearing up, I would come upon a huge big rig that would make it so I could barley see where I was.

When I got home the sun was shining. I could see the dark cloud of rain that I had just driven through.  Dark, menacing, hovering ever so close.  But I was in the sun again, thankfully.

So, I started thinking about the doplar radar.  The thing we see on the news to tell us a storm is coming, or here, and the severity of it.  I began to think about how that applies to life.

Have you ever wondered why bad things happen to good people?  I do, because I know a lot of good people who go through some tough life changes.  Some handle it well, and some not so much.  I began to realize that life's challenges are like storms that come through our lives.  Sometimes they are just clouds that pass over and wouldn't even show up on the doplar radar.

But some, some are the red storms that pass over and pound us down to the ground, to the point that all you can do is stay inside and hunker down in bed (or on the side on the road), waiting for it to pass by.

Sometimes we wonder if it will ever end, because sometimes it feels like one continuous storm that just keeps coming and coming.  It would be nice if we had doplar radar for humans. "Jenny, an orange storm is heading your way...prepare!!" or "Today will be sprinkled with little showers, but it will be an overall nice day."

So, I started to think, well, we can't control life's storms because we are all going to have them.  What I thought was, I get to choose where I live so I can handle them better, and hopefully have less of them.

Some places on earth or going to have more storms than others and I get to choose where I live mentally!!  Do I want to live in a mental Hawaii or Alaska?  A warm location that has occasional storms, but is overall paradise.  Or Alaska where most days are pretty brutal, cold, and a bear might be waiting for me.

I choose Hawaii! I can choose the way I feel every day and how I surround myself with great people and self care.  I want to live in a warm location with people saying Mahalo to me all day long.

This much is true, the storms will pass, we can pick up the pieces and move forward.  Life is waiting and the sun is shining somewhere.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Lost

I love my Coldplay.

Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross
Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt